Early December 2012

I'm back after I disappeared from my blog world for a month. First of all, I would like to wish a Happy Birthday to His Royal Highness Sultan today. May our state continues to progress well and remain in peace. After worked for 3 months with the company, the management was finally confirmed my position as a permanent employee in the company. Good news is I can fully utilize the benefits as an employee but the bad news is the work is getting harder. Most of the working people love Friday because the next day is weekend. As for me, I hate the Friday most, not Monday because most of the deliverable need to be done on every Friday. The engineers rush to finish the design on time. But how about the quality of the project? That is one of the main reasons that I do not like Friday. How about my relationship with my colleagues? I think so far so good although some of them are scare of me because I look like a 'Loan Shark', chase them for the deliverable. Do you believe colleagues = real friends? For me, I think I should not treat my colleagues as real friends that I used to have in my university or school last time. Some how most of the people will protect their own interest and not willing to help others unless they can get the something that they want.   Furthermore, some people may sabotage you to protect their own interest. You can see most of them got their own special 'Poker Face'. Therefore, we have to be careful and think wise before we act. Meanwhile, a lot of my friends told me that I should find a partner from the office. I think it is not a good idea because working together with your partner in the same office may cause few problems and lead an unhealthy relationship. For now, I would like to focus on my job first. If I have a chance in the future, I would like to further study improve my knowledge on this beautiful world. That is why I always tell my friends and relatives that I will only marry at 40 years old. Haha~ Christmas is coming soon. My company is organizing an annual dinner which will be held on this coming Friday and the theme is 'Wild Wild West'. I am not sure what should I wear on that day. Maybe I just wear a shirt with jeans? Simple and nice? Some more I am not a performer, so I do not need to wear so pretty as long as I enjoy the atmosphere of the dinner. Lastly, in conjunction of the Christ,as celebration, my project team is organizing a 'Secret Santa'. It sounds like everyone is being forced to join but I do not mind. Everyone need to buy a gift for another person and the receiver would not know who is the giver. It's like playing hide & seek. I am still thinking what should I buy for colleague?  Any idea? Engineering Book? Dolls? Santa Hat? Bright Colour Underwear? It's time for me to fool someone~ HAHAHA!

I can only imagine, only imagine what it'd be like~

Between End of October & Early November 2012~

Hi readers! How are you? I know that I left my blog for quite long. I was too tired and lazy to update my blog. I would like to apologize to my blog, I will try my best to update you. Last week I was busy with a 2 days of workshop training, rehearsal, photo-shooting, friends meet up and lastly, my first big day of my life. I was lucky enough that I can attend the workshop because I managed to get a complimentary seat from the organizer and I do not need to work for 2 days. The workshop was about the importance of sustainability for infrastructures and it was a wake up call for everyone, to protect our mother Earth and also our future. After the workshop, I have to work for a day before I am on leave. There were so many things that I need to follow up after the 2 days workshop. It was not easy for me to finish the things before I can take leave on the next day. I was thinking what will happen if I take leave for a week or a month? Last Friday, I went back to my university to attend the rehearsal for my big day. It was a boring rehearsal because all I need to do is to remember where to stand only. After the rehearsal and lunch, my ex-classmates & I went to few iconic places in my university for photo-shooting. It was hot when we wore the robes under the bright Sun, jumped here and there but it was worth and fun because we know that we do not have the chance again to take picture together in the future. It took around 2 hours to complete the photo shooting. Went to Puchong to meet my ex-roommates. Ate and talked for hours until midnight. It shows that we did not meet for a long long time and many things that we wanted to share, from the hostel life to study life and lastly working life. It is not easy to maintain this kind of friendship. Saturday was a family day for me. Had a family photo-shooting together and I realized that the studio that I booked is not cheap. But I hope that the quality of the photos will be very good since the studio has a good reputation on photo quality. After dinner, my best buddy purposely came all the way from his house to Kampung Subang and he gave a gift to me. I was grateful that his sincerity, skipped his dinner time to meet me. It's a good friendship between us and I hope that it will last long. It was a nervous night for me before my big day. I was thinking what will happen on my big day. Slept less than 5 hours, I rushed to my university on my big day morning with my parents. I need to be at the hall compound by 7am. When I reached there, I saw many graduates' family members and friends at there. Thanks God. It was a chilling day. I do not have to sweat a lot. If not, I will smell like a fried squid. I met few of my ex-classmates. Most of them were late. Maybe it was due to the distance and time arrangement. I noticed all girl classmates put on their make up. They transformed from a study look student to an office lady. Same goes to guys, wore formal shirt and looked smart. It was a messy event. Too many people. When I entered into the hall with other graduates, everyone were looking at us. It was the moment that we can walk like a Hollywood star on a red carpet. We looked so cool. After the graduates & VIP processions, the ceremony started with the opening speech continue with the scroll conferment. It took 3 hours for me to wait for my turn to receive my scroll. Imagine how bored I felt in the hall. During the conferment, I saw few of the graduates acted funny when the received their scroll from the Pro-Chancellor. I think it was a pathetic act and they should respect the ceremony. Meanwhile, everyone of us were thinking on how to receive the scroll while looking at the camera at the same time. For me, I was thinking that it's better for me not to look at the camera and just concentrate on the conferment. It was a delighted moment when I went up to the stage and receive my scroll from the Pro-Chancellor. I greeted him and he replied and smile at me. Luckily I did not fell down. After 30 minute, the ceremony was ended. Every graduates walked out from the hall together for the last time. I saw many people out there. They were waiting for the children or friends who just graduated. I met my family members back outside. I was happy that my family members able to joined with me on my big day and my few of my friends came and met me. I would like to thank them  for their presence &the gifts. I managed to have a dinner with my juniors because I know that I will be not going back to my university for a long time. Meanwhile, I was a little bit sad after my big day because I could not manage to take photo with most of my ex-classmates and also few of my friends that could not come. Too bad, no fate. Life still need to move on. I am officially as a 'Bachelor'. I have to plan for the next step of my life and I hope it will goes smoothly. Big thanks to my family that encouraged & supported me to study so far until this level. I love you all. Gratitude to my teachers from primary and secondary schools who taught me well. Thanks to my lecturers from college and university for creating me as a 'Bachelor' today. Happy to know a lot of friends during my 17 years of study. Best of luck to everyone.


Before I end my post, I would like to share a poem that I heard from a movie on yesterday evening. It was an inspirational poem that moved my heart.

Though much is taken, much abides; and though

We are not now that strength which in old days

Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are...

One equal temper of heroic hearts,

Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will

To strive, to seek, to find,

And not to yield..

Nice Jump!

(Photo Courtesy from PYLoo's Photography~)

I wish you a happy weekend & happy holiday on next week. I will be back here soon~

Mid October 2012

What a bright day today after few days of rain. It's time for me to write back something on my blog after I left it for few weeks. I would like to start about my work. Currently, I am doing something that not related to design but more to project management and quality control. The job is getting harder each day. I have to deal with design team leaders directly and it takes me a lot of courage to do so. But so far I still can handle it even though on my birthday, a team leader came to my workplace and throw a tantrum to me & my supervisor and that time was at 1900 hours. Yes, I was working over time on my birthday. Some of my friends asked me to take leave on my birthday and I think why should I need to apply a leave on that day? My birthday is just a normal day and I have few plans to do on next year so I have to save the leaves. Meanwhile, I would like to thank to those who wished me on that day and I hope your wish will come true. And for the first time, I had my birthday dinner with my colleagues. It was a good session to know well on my colleagues. It's good to foster a good relationship with colleagues but for my opinion there is a limit. I heard a lot of rumours about politics until love affairs in the office and I need to be careful if I want to survive in the company. Last weekend, my company sent me and other colleagues to a place for 'holiday'. Technically, I have to representing my company for a team building session in the north of Peninsular Malaysia and it consider as working on the weekend. I have no choice and I need to attend it due to some circumstances. The session is just an ordinary session, mixed with other companies staff and play together. But one thing that 'amazed' me was the accommodation. It was a dormitory but its not well equipped. The dorm is humid and the best thing was the toilet. It's an open toilet aka kampung style. Oh man.. The organizer should inform the participants about the toilet condition. If they inform, I will surely bring a 'sarung' or short pant to be use for bath. I think the readers can imagine how I bathed on the three days of session and for the last night, there was no water supply. Meanwhile, I got the chance to do jungle trekking for six hours on the second day. It was exhausted but it is a good training for me because I didn't exercise for a long long time. Luckily during that time, the leeches dislike me. If not, I have to donate my blood to them. Reached back to KL almost midnight on Sunday and only rest for few hours before start to work on Monday. Imagine how I look like on last Monday and I think I can be look like Edward Cullen~ Hahaha~

Less than 20 days left and I started to be nervous~

I am Titanium!

P/S: It took me a half day to compose this post...

Birthday Wish List 2012??

This is my third time to write about my birthday wish list on Blogger. When I checked on my last year's wish, thank God that some of my main wishes came true. Currently I have a better life with all of my family members are good in health, graduated with a degree honours, work in a good company, enjoy my bachelorhood all the time~

On the other hand, I was surprised that I am so greedy because I wished to get 16 items on last year. It was too much~ But when I think back, I believe that wish to get or hope to achieve something is not a bad thing and it is an encouragement for us to continue a better life.

Back to my wish list, what should I wish to get? There are a lot of things that I want but for this post, I think I just want to write one only.

I wish to get a true love~ I have to search it by myself and it takes time. Meanwhile, I need to concentrate on my current job because I am still a fresh graduate and still in a learning stage.

The other things that I want to get? If the readers who know me well, I think you will know what I want beside the main wish.

That is all I want to write for now. Enjoy while you can for the weekend~

Now you're just somebody that I used to know~

P/S: Few weeks left before my birthday and I have to work on that day~

End of August 2012~

When I check on my previous post, I saw somebody ticked on the 'Reactions' part which he/she felt my post is 'Funny', 'Interesting' & 'Cool' and I was thinking is it 'Funny' and 'Cool? I felt a bit angry because my previous post is not funny and cool. I was expressing my anger and frustration. But never mind, it's his/her choice to tick which rate he/she wants. Meanwhile, I have been working in my current company for a few weeks and I feel I'm choosing the right path because I manage to handle the works well although there are a lot of things I don't know yet. Some of my friends especially the juniors shocked when they know that I changed my job. The reason is simple and I think that the readers are smart enough to think and I do not need to explain so much about it. I was grateful that I have learnt a lot of things from my previous job and I would like to thank those who guided me with patience. I wish all the best for them and hope they will finish the project well. During the Raya holiday, I think most of the readers were having fun with their family, friends, or partner and travel to some place for holiday. As for me, I chose to stay at home during that time because I would like to rest well before I start to work again. Maybe the readers will think that I am lazy, passive and you are right. I am lazy to go out. Same for this weekend Merdeka weekend holiday. I prefer to stay at home, lay back on the couch and watch my favourite dramas or movies on television. Some of my friends advised me that I should go out, date some one, meet some friends or travel some where to let the time pass. I'm a passive person. I seldom ask people for an outing and I think most of my friends are busy with their own life. It's not like during my study time where everyone is free all the time. I understand the situation and I prefer to enjoy my holiday by myself. Next two months later, there will be going to have a long holiday and I hope that I manage to apply my leave. I would like to travel a place by myself, backpacking style back and I am still thinking which place I should visit. Any suggestion from the readers is much appreciated. While on my way to my car after work on last Thursday, I saw a woman was robbed by a motorcyclist and it happened just in front of the office lobby. I was shocked and it was happened too fast. I couldn't help the woman much and it was my second time to see this kind of incident in my whole life. The first incident was happened during my college year, where the motorcyclist snatched a girl's handbag on the main road. Nowadays, we cannot rely too much on the security personals or police to guard our safety. We have to prepare ourselves well and beware of the surroundings. Even my colleague advised that we have to bring umbrella all the time when we walk even though during the sunny day because umbrella can use as a defend tool and I agree with him. Be careful~ Meanwhile, if the readers notice, I have increased the limit of privacy for all of my social networks application because I don't want to let my social friends to know/see all of my things and I want to keep some as private. If the readers think that I am too secretive, yes and you do not know me well~

Wake me up, when September ends~

P/S: I can't wait for my graduation ceremony to come....

Summer Ends~

I abandoned my blog for a long time and today, I just want to write about my expression on few things that I faced on last month.

I made a drastic decision that it will change my future. I am not sure it is right or wrong. 

More works need to be done when I work longer. 

Disappointed with those who are not responsible for their actions.

Disrespect those who didn't reply my messages or emails.

Feel so pain not only to the fleshes but through the soul. 

It's hard to find a real friend, to share your expressions or problems. Maybe I feel insecure to tell  them or think that they are insincere and not reliable to keep my secrets. 

People will take for granted no matter how good they are. Everyone have their own poker face. 

Jealousy grows stronger whenever I walk in a mall.

Fall in love is easy but to express the love need to have a huge courage.

Maintain a relationship, need to sacrifice something. 

Summer ends, Autumn is coming.
Stay strong and the future will be better~

Selamat Hari Raya to my readers and hope you an enjoyable holiday on this weekend!

Best of Luck~

We are going to step in to a new path. 

During the study time, we can make mistakes and try to re correct back. But during at work, we need to be cautious enough on what we are doing. A mistake that you done during your work time may lead in to a disaster life for yourself.

To those who are still studying, you should enjoy your study life as much as you can because once you start to work, Hahaha~ 

I would like to wish Good Luck to my friends who will be going to start their first real job soon! 

Don't worry, we have to face a lot of work problems. Just treat the problems as your challenge or a training to make you become a successful person.

Take care~ :D

I hope this song will reminds us that tonight is our last day of enjoyment and we will that 'We Are Young'~

Before I start my real job~

I took one month and a half for my holiday right after my final exam and it is going to end soon. Next Monday, I have to report duty for my first real job and I have a mixed feeling with it. I felt so excited but at the same time I am nervous because I still haven't know what is my scope of work yet. I just hope I manage to handle it. I spend my holiday moderately. Like normal a student, I went to the malls for window shopping, watch movie and met some of my old friends. It was good to meet them and know about their current status. Meanwhile, I had the opportunity to attend an interview in the Lion City but in the end I screwed it up. I am not ready to work in a foreign land yet. Maybe it takes some time for me to get the courage and explore to other world. I am grateful and would like to thank to my former housemate for letting me to stay in his house when I went for the interview. I believe that friendship is important and we should help our friends who is in need if we have the capability to do so. But we should not think to get some returns back from our friends when we help them. We need to be sincere when we help. Most of my friends have secured a job and keep asking me about it. Furthermore, they like to ask about the basic salary that offered by the company. For me, it is a sensitive question and we should not ask this question to our friends. I agree with my senior, who told me that we should not reveal our current salary not to our friends only, but also to our family members. Nowadays, people will get jealous easily and you will face a big trouble if they want to sabotage you. Like what I remember, "Silence is Golden~". Last two weeks, I went to Heart of Asia with my former classmates. It was a graduation trip for us before we start our first real job. We used 10 days to travel around the country. I felt the time is not enough for us to visit all the place that I wanted but it was a memorable trip because I managed to see and understand their culture. I was amazed with the system and technology that they are using today. They are more advanced  and the people are much more friendly than here. Some of my friends asked me to visit the 'Real' night life of the city at there. It's not the famous night markets, but it's the famous clubs at there. I know that there a lot of girls there to see but due to time constraint, I do not have time to visit the clubs and it is not cheap to visit those clubs. Furthermore, I only bring sufficient of money to travel and buy some souvenirs only. I think I have already my friends disappointed about it. Haha~ One of the most memorable incident that I will never forget during the trip is when I stayed in a hotel in Taichung. My friends and I were shocked when we heard a loud voice continuously from the next room. We heard  a couple was screaming all the while in the room for three hours. Oh yeah, the couple was doing something fishy in the room and only stay there for three hours. We realized that the hotel is a hot spot area for those who want to have an extra service during the typhoon time. We saw few couples went to the hotel and do the same fishy stuff at there. Furthermore, there is a machine vendor that sells those sex toys for the customer to use. And the most surprise thing, there is another machine vendor that sells condoms in each hotel rooms. What a joke for us~ =.=

The machine vendor that sells sex toy~

The condom machine vendor~

If I have the chance, I would like to visit there again in the future especially the Taroko National Park and the Yuli town. It is a nice place for leisure travel or retirement place to stay. After I came back from the trip, I went to my university back to visit my lecturers and juniors. I miss my university so much after I spend there for four years. Its like the same feeling when I leave my secondary school & college. I just regret that I didn't achieve something that I want during my university time. But never mind, I am still young in heart~ Haha~ I think that is all I want to write for today's post. I have to enjoy my last holiday before I start to work. I am not going to write my blog regularly like last time but I will try my best to keep my blog updated. Good luck to my former classmates who will be going to face the reality soon~ 

O Sole Mio~ A great song before I start to work~

Unofficially Graduated~

Finally, I am Unofficially Graduated after I submitted my Final Year Project Theses and the Integrated Design Project Report on last Wednesday. After the final exam on last week, I have to rushed my Integrated Design Project Final Report and I need to do my last presentation for it on last Monday. It was very rushed because some of my members submitted their works to me so late. But luckily, I manage to finish it on time. During the presentation, my group was examined by the Head of Civil Engineering Department. I was nervous & scared that when the HOD invigilates our presentation although this is not the first time I do my presentation in front of him. He asked a lot of technical questions that until I don't know how to answer it. I realized that even though we study for four years of degree but we are still have not master the basic knowledge yet. We usually memorize all of the formulae and not understand the principles of engineering. I hope those readers, especially the juniors, please understand the principles and not memorizing. The presentation lasted for 2 hours and I had backache due to stand for too long. The next day, I joined with my classmates to print our theses together. We managed to find a place to print it and it is quite cheap. Meanwhile, the printing price for the Integrated Design Project cost me a lot. Luckily, I managed to claim back the money from my group members. If not, I do not have enough money to go for my holiday trip in the future. I submitted my reports on last Wednesday and I unofficially graduated from my university. I did not feel happy like last time, when I finished my final exam or else. Instead, I felt empty and miss my study life. I realized that I study for 19 years since kindergarten until university. Some of my classmates asked me about should I continue for postgraduate studies. Haha~ If I study, then I have to study for another 2-4 years. I haven't decide my future path yet, whether to study or work. As for now, I would like to concentrate on my holiday first and I need to rest well before I start a new chapter of my life. My first holiday was a half day trip to Klang on last Thursday with my classmates. It was a good trip and I was lucky to visit Tanjung Harapan for the first time in my life. The trip ended with a visit at the I-City, a place that I think it is  a waste of electricity, although the developer told the public that they are using the LED lights which can save a lot of electricity. The price of the game rides are not cheap. The management should give a discount for Malaysian so that more local citizens can come for the rides. Same goes to the KLCC Sky Bridge, they should lower down the price for the locals. It is very expensive for those who cannot afford it to buy the ticket & visit the bridge. On last Friday, I was going for another interview and I almost late for it. I was so scared that I will give a bad impression to the interviewer. Luckily, I reached there on time and without hesitation, the interviewer gave a test for me. There were 10 questions of it and  need to answer it in 30 minutes. It was like a physic test and I almost forget all of the fundamentals. The interviewer checked my answer on the spot and after that he told me about his company profile. It was a good experience for me because each interviews have their own styles. Therefore, we need to prepare everything we can and be more confident during the interview. Last Sunday, I attended my good and old friend's wedding dinner. I know her since primary school and same school until secondary school. I was surprised to know that she is going to marry soon and she was the first person among my secondary school friends to get marry. I managed to meet some of my secondary school friends and know about their current lives. I am happy to see her get married and I wish her and her husband a wonderful marriage and get a dozen of children. Time flies fast. I was wondering when will be my turn to get marry? But I just realized that I am still single and I have to walk a long way before my time reach. Hahaha~ I think that's all I can share about what happened to me on last week. Enjoy the holiday first before start a new life~ ;)

So let mercy come and wash away~

Before & After Last Final Exam 2012

How do you feel when you finish your last final exam for your undergraduate studies?

I felt nothing even though I finished my last final exam on the second day of the exam week. It's looks weird for me. Usually when I finish my exams or tests, I will be very delighted and will go for a celebration with my coursemates. But this time is different. I have to continue to finish my Integrated Design Project after my final exam. Next week I will be going to face my final week in my university before I leave as an unofficial graduate. Currently I am still waiting for my group members to submit their final design report to me for checking & compilation before I submit it to the client. I do really hope that my group members will send it soon. Before the final exam, everyone was busy with their Final Year Project presentation, job interviews and the preparation of final exam. I was so tired when I faced these on last week. Rushed from a place to another place. I had my final presentation for my Final Year Project on last Friday and I was being asked thoroughly by the examiner about my project outcomes. It was a like facing a multiple shots from a person who use the M-16 rifle. But thanks to my supervisor who helped and backed me up during the presentation. I hope that I won't get a bad marks for my project. Meanwhile, I have checked my draft thesis with an anti-plagiarism software that currently use by my university recently and I satisfied with the result. Luckily I do not need to edit back my thesis so much. I had two days to do my revision before the final exam and it was quite last minute to do it. Furthermore, I do not have the study mood to revise all the notes and I always think about my holiday after my submission of my thesis. My target for the last final exam is to pass, not to score a good grades. Readers may think that I am give up or something else. Yes, I am and even some my coursemates think the same way. During my last final exam, I still can see some of the students were whispering each other. Really 'Respect' them on how to cheat during the exam time. I still don't know how to answer few questions for the papers although I am final year student. Hahaha. Lastly, one of my coursemates told me that I wasted many time for being serious all the time and I was like... Speechless... Maybe its due to my seriousness, he thinks that I am still single, no girls dare to come near to me, I don't like to approach girl or I am homosexual? Hahaha~

This song shows my current feeling~

13th Week of the Last Semester~

I am not going to write about what had I done on last week. Instead, I would like to write about what I felt. Last week, my temper is getting bad when I faced some of the challenges. Furthermore, I get a lot of pressures regarding on studies, projects and job applications/offers from my peers. Actually, I shouldn't treat these matters as my pressures because I am different from the others. But imagine when a whole group of people ask  the same questions to you that you don't like to answer it. Will you get frustrated? I am a person who does not like to tell too much about my things to other people including my best friend. Maybe the readers may think that I am a secretive person. Yes I am. I was betrayed by few friends that revealed my secrets to other people on last time. I do not trust people easily after that incident. From that moment, I seldom tell my real problems or share my secrets to my friends, including my best /good friends. Meanwhile, spreading rumour is not really good. Rumour is like a virus that may kill a person. I was being told by a friend that I got an offer for something. I felt weird about it and I asked him/her where he/she got the information. To my surprise, he/she told me that he/she know it from another friend where that friend know it from another friend who so called that will give me the offer. I didn't get any notice that I will get the offer and I categorized it as a rumour because there is no solid proof to shows that it is a true story. I agree with one of my lecturers who told me that as a future engineer, we need to analyze a problem with facts and figures and not with rumours. I think that is all I want to crap at here. 1 week left before the back to back final exam but I am still slacking. 

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few will be tried before you give them your confidence~

12th Week of the Last Semester

As usual, my pressure level is increasing when the due date for the project submission, test, presentation or final exam is coming soon. But most of my coursemates told me that I still look so calm and free from worries. Actually I do really worry about my projects, tests, exams and also my future path. Maybe it because I didn't show it too publicly and I keep it tightly, like I seal my secrets well. Last Monday, I was invited by a society to attend their last event of the year. When I compare their activities with my university, there are some difference and the main is formality. I think its due to the environment, my university is more keen to formality and protocol. Even one of the organizers told me that my university is too formal until need to stand when the national anthem and my university's song are played. I am not sure he/she is joking or insulting but I think when we are in an event, we need to be careful with the way we present ourselves. But I really thank to the organizers for inviting me and I think it will be the last student activity that I joined before I graduate. Meanwhile, my university's career unit organized a career fair for two days on last Tuesday. It was a smaller scale if compare to last year's career fair but some of the big companies come back again and support the fair. This time, I didn't join the fair as a volunteer because I am busy with my projects and I became a job-seeker instead. I saw a lot of students were applying oil and gas companies on that day. I think everyone is searching for a high pay salary job so that they can survive in an expensive society. As for now, I still haven't get any offer yet even though I applied some of the jobs since last month and I still continue to apply it. I am happy for my coursemates who secured their job but at the same time I start to worry about myself because I haven't get an  offer yet. Maybe the readers will think that it is too early for me to apply a job but I think it is not too early. Its really competitive nowadays, not easy to find a good job. I hope I can get it soon and I really dislike when my coursemates ask about my job application. Next week, I will be facing a test and a group project presentation and I am not ready yet. Next two weeks, I will be facing another group presentation and my final year project presentation. Next three weeks, I will be facing my final exam which will be held on the first and second day. Next four weeks, I have to submit my thesis and project reports. When the juniors asked me to describe about my final year, I told them that they will know it soon and asked them to enjoy while they can. I am not sure that my advice will frighten them or not but I think they will make it through.


The secret of success is learning how to use the pain & pleasure instead of having pain & pleasure use you. If you do that, you're in control of your life. If you don't, life controls you~

This song resembles my feeling now~

15th April 2012

How lucky I am just now. I was shocked when I heard a loud 'POP' sound in my room and suddenly there is no electricity. Initially I thought that no electricity for the whole building but I was wrong, my house is the only place does not have the electricity. It is not the first time for me to face this kind of situation in the hostel. I faced it before during my final exam time on last year. The room is so dark and I home alone I do not have a torchlight and I had to used my the light of my handphone to see the area and I still don't know how to use my it. When I wanted to go out to the office's notice board and get the technician's contact number, one of my housemates came back from his hometown. Luckily got a housemate to accompany with me for the dark time. Haha~ After half an hour later, the technician came and repaired the problem. He found out that my room's sockets got problem. Luckily I haven't take my bath and the weather is really hot although this evening the rain showered at my university. Today is the 100th Anniversary of the sinking of Titanic. A total of 1514 deaths and it still famous for it's sinking legacy. I would like to share a short clip on how the ship sank by James Cameron and his team rather than to share the famous song 'My Hearts Will Go On' to commemorate the anniversary, to let the readers understand how it sank.

New Computer-Generated Imaginary of how Titanic sank~

3 weeks left before the final exam starts. I only have 2 papers and I need to face it on the first and second day of the exam week. It is a 'Back to Back' exam~~

Need to plan the time well and

I believe that 'The Pain You Feel Today Will Be The Strength You Feel Tomorrow~'

Early April 2012

I would like to wish a Blessed Good Friday to my Christian friends and have a good Easter weekend!

Early this month, I was quite busy with my Integrated Design Project especially when I need to prepare and compile the materials for the client's meeting. It was quite last minute to received a notice for the meeting. But this is a real life. I need to be prepare what ever I face. About the meeting, the client was quite satisfied with my group works except a member. I tried my best to make sure that he do his works but sometimes he can gives me a pressure. I think the other group leaders will agree with my statement. I just hope that everything are in order. Recently, I have received a call from a company and the executive asked me whether I am interested to work with their company or not. Without hesitation, I agreed and sent my application letter & resume to her. And now, I hope they will ask me for an interview. But its still early, I still need to apply other companies so that I have a few choices to choose for my future. Nowadays, I am getting lazier despite busy with my projects. I didn't do my revision for the subjects that I taken. I just started to revise the notes 3 days before the mid term test. My mood of study is gone now. Maybe it is due to I am going to graduate soon. I am not the only person who feel that, some of my classmates feel that way too. I need to find my study mood back before the final exam. Yesterday, I took a test in the afternoon. I realized that my handwriting is getting worst like 'Chicken's Claw' (direct translation from Malay Language: Cakar Ayam). I hope that my lecturer will not deduct my marks due to my handwriting. During the test, I saw one of my classmates was cheating by copying the answer from her notes. She hided her notes under her answer booklet so that the lecturer couldn't notice it. I was wondering how she can get a high courage to copy. During evening time, I went to a hotel with my classmates for the last dinner before we graduate. It was a last minute planning and it is not easy to plan since everyone is busy with  their project. But in the end, it ended well. I saw them were enjoying. Gossiping here and there. No stress. After the dinner, we had our group photo session on a staircase. There was a tourist, who was walking down on the staircase. So sudden, she stopped and stand on a level of the staircase, called her friend to come down. My classmate asked her politely to excuse herself for us to take our group photo but she didn't leave and she  remains standing at there, interrupt our group photo taking. When her friend came down, she showed a 'Tiny Eyes' or 'Mata Sepet' look to us before she leave. All of us felt like: WHAT THE HELL??? Can she respect us? Even when we visit other countries, we still respect their people, cultures and rules. But they didn't. They came here to visit or study but didn't respect us. I think they should go back to their own motherland if they feel that here is not suitable for them to visit or study and the country will be more peaceful without their presence.  Please respect people so that they will respect you back. 6 weeks left and it will be the crucial weeks for me. I need to stay focus and keep a good health so that I can finish these 6 weeks well. 

A song that boost my spirit~ Don't give up~

The 8th Week of the Final Semester~

As usual, everyone is busy but this time all of us were focusing on our Final Year Project draft thesis. We didn't touch on Integrated Design Project and the work of progress is delaying. Some of us were quite lucky because we started to write the draft since last January and finished it on time. We have plenty time to write and check our draft. But some were in rush and do it in last minute. I saw some of them need to work overnight and sleep less to finish their draft and this is bad for health. Time management is really important and I am still trying to master it. About thesis, I have something to comment about it. Different lecturers have their own style. But one main thing, I think they have the same thought which is: 'Its not the pages counted as a good thesis but the content of the book is the main criteria to check the quality of a thesis'. It is not easy to to write a good thesis even myself, I have the difficulty to write it especially the vocabulary part. Its better for you to ask your friend to help you to check your thesis once it done. Different ideas or comments from your friends may help you to make a better thesis. Meanwhile, some of my classmates suggested to me to organize a formal dinner before we face our final exam and graduate. I was wondering why I am always the one who need to organize it? Is it because I have the experience to organize it? I don't mind to help and organize it but I just hope that every one will support it. Yesterday, a lot of youngster went to KLCC to meet their favourite K-Pop group at a concert for F1. I was surprised when I saw pictures showed that the fans waited for the concert since early in the morning, to get a good spot to watch the free concert. Even some of friends posted a lot of the group pictures on the Facebook for the last 3 days ago. The K-Pop group is really powerful. How long they can maintain their popularity? Haha~ Yesterday, I was chatted with one of my friends and we discussed about something that I haven't face it before in my life. Sometimes, when I walk in a shopping mall, I will think a while what is my future will be when I have my own wife and children? I think too far already and now I am still single but not available. Hahaha~ I agree with what my friend told me yesterday. He said that: 'Love is like a flower, need to care from time to time by your heart. Need to keep on watering. Keep on and ensure that the soil is good and comfortable. Sometimes need some sunny day and to make her not to forget the warmness that you gave it to her'. A good theory to keep the relationship. Thanks for my friend's opinion. I hope those who are in a relationship, appreciate it before its too late and you will get hurt. Love your family while they are still alive. Care and support your beloved ones. 58 days left before I end my course. Mixed feelings~

I can feel your heartbeat~

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P?S: I need to wake up early tomorrow. =.=

Half Semester Gone, Half Semester Left~

Next Friday need to submit my first draft thesis. No mood to write it. Need to write minimum of 70 pages for my 'First Love Book'. Half semester gone and semester left. 7 weeks left to study and after that will be the final exam week. Everyone is rushing for their projects, especially writing thesis. Meanwhile, some of us were facing few tests on last week. I managed to do my revision for my test. Sometimes I can say that not only practice makes perfect but we need to understand the term so that we can remember the term for a longer time. During the test, there was a question that caused every students frustrated for it. It took more than 30 minutes to solve that question although it should be done in 5-10 minutes. Even for myself, I was sweating at that time and felt pain on my right arm. I was like a robot to write answer fast so that I can finish the question on time. One of the student asked lecturer about it. In the end, I found it that the question got a little bit problem. I just hope that the lecturer will mark the answer appropriately. My classmates and I were thinking about our lives after the graduation. Graduation Trip? Road Trip? What will we become in the future? Work as engineer? Plan to buy a car and house? Marry the girlfriend? One of my classmates said that we look different now if compare when we were in freshman year that time and I agreed with him. The way we think is different than last time. I can see the almost everyone got white hair and I am proud that I have a lot of white hair. Even the hair stylist joked with me that got white hair is better than those who has the bald hair today. Haha~ I have sent few letters for my job application. I just hope that I will get a good job soon. Some of my classmates asked about my application. As usual, I do not like to tell some of my things to others and I prefer to keep it for myself. Maybe the readers will think that I am a secretive person. Yes, I am. I do not like to share my main problems and secrets with my friends, even my best friends now. I was betrayed when my things was revealed to everyone by my friends even though I told them to keep it as a secret. It was a trauma to me and I promise to myself that I will not reveal my main problems or secrets to other anymore. Maybe this will be one of my reasons that I am no in a relationship? My English is getting worst. I do not know how am I suppose to write my 'First Love Book'.

Half Semester Left~

An Inspirational & Great Song~ 海阔天空~

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Early March 2012~

Almost 2 weeks I didn't write my blog. Quite busy with the Final Year Project, Integrated Design Project, elective subject project and other work loads. Pressure level is increasing. My temper is getting bad. It is not easy to handle something that does not follow your requirement and caused other members in to trouble, especially those people who think they are really smart but actually they are not. I can say that they are just a bad and lousy 'Actor' because they do not know how to act or perform as a real & mature engineering student. Everyone is facing their hard time on this last semester, which will end on next 2 months. Some of them wish to end their studies as soon as possible but some of them feel like do not want to graduate, they feel like they will miss their studies life soon. Some of my classmates and coursemates asked about my future plan and job application. I haven't think thoroughly and decide my future yet due to my hectic time now. Maybe after I settle with my works now first then I do my job application. Last week was a hectic hectic week for everyone because we need to submit our Final Year Project Progress Report 3. Time management is really important and I hope that my work is on schedule. Yesterday I officially skipped a class. It was a long time I skip a class last time. I'm not sure that I have this kind of opportunity to skip again when I work.

International Women's Day~ Connecting Girls, Inspiring Futures~ Nice theme~

That's all for today post since I just want to write my feeling~

First & Last time to donate in my university~

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200th Post @ 3rd Anniversary of aMiR's BloG

My blog already reached 200th post and it seems like I have a lot of things to write for the past 3 years. I was started to write a blog when I worked in a bookstore in KLCC on 2008, to express about my working experience at there on Friendster Blog. After that, I changed to Blogger to write my blog because Blogger is much more easier to use. If I still continue to write my blog on Friendster, I think all of the posts will gone because Friendster terminated their blog function. Luckily~ When I read back my old posts, I felt so funny about myself and I saw I changed a lot. There are few reasons why I like to write blog: to share my experience with others, to express or give some opinions, to improve my writings and to keep some of memories so that when I am free, I can read and remember what have I done. A lot of my friends asked me about why I put the name of 'aMiR' on my blog, instead of using my own name and I promised them that I will explain on why I use it on my 200th post. The first reason is simple, I do not want to use my own name on the blog. Second reason is the name of 'aMiR' is given by one of my classmates during the secondary school time. I asked her what is the suitable Malay name for me. She told me that 'aMiR' is suitable for me because I always looked like a leader. =.= Maybe I am tall and my voice is too loud. But I like the name. According to Wikipedia, Amir means a commander, general, or prince, is a title of high office used throughout the Muslim world. I didn't use my English name for the blog because I prefer to use it privately. That is why I am using the current one. I hope my simple explanation will make the readers understand.

This week, I felt so pressure. A lot of things need to be done especially the Integrated Design Project. Need to do a lot of pre-planning and to monitor my group members' work of progress. It is a good training and I hope that with this experience, I can work well in the future. My classmate told to me that we just have 2 months left to study. This 2 months will be the critical months for me to complete my studies. I pray that my classmates & I can go it through well. I am quite nervous to graduate soon.

I will write more posts on my blog if I am free.

Happy 3rd Birthday to my blog, aMiR!

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P/S: I like number '3'

Valentine's Day 2012

Last week was a terrific week for me. Too many things need to be done. Felt heartache when I need to do the works. Slept less than 5 hours to rushed the works. I hope it will be alright soon.

For today's post, I would like to share something that I haven't reveal it before to the public. Even my friends didn't know about it. It's about my life on love affairs. How should I write... There were few girls that I admired since secondary school until university. During my form 5, there was a girl I admired. But because it is near to SPM, I do not have the courage to ask her for a date and worried that I could not handle my exams well. So, I gave up. Then I continued my study in a college, which a lot of Chinese girls study at there. As many people say: 'If you cannot find a boy/girlfriend in your secondary school, don't worry. You can find a boy/girlfriend during your college time". Hahaha. I saw a lot of guys were rushing to find a girlfriend and same goes to the girls. Its like a 'War of Love'~ I saw 3 guys chase the same girl or 4 girls chase the same guy. Haha~ As for me, same reasons. Admired a girl but I don't have the courage, shy. I am a coward and in the end, a guy managed to grab her. Too bad~ When I came to university to study, I realized that not many women study in the campus. Habis~ Furthermore, most of the pretty girls already grabbed by the seniors before I came in. No luck~ There were few girls that I admired but I have decided not to go for it. Wasted the chance again. Now, I marry to myself, having a single life~

A lot of people thought that I had a girlfriend before. But due to lack of confidence and courage, I am still single until now. I do not know how to express my feelings to a girl. I always use excuses such as studies, no money, no time to avoid myself to get a girlfriend. Sometimes I felt regret why I didn't take an action on the girl that I admired, especially during my college time. I wasted the chance. But I believe that my fate to have a partner will come, although I don't know when is it.

I think this is not my style to write about something that I feel shy at here. Anyway, I would like to wish a Happy Valentine's Day to those who are in relationship and to those who are single including myself, hope today will be a good day for us!

A Great Song from her, I Will Always Love you~

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Chap Goh Meh 2012

I would like to wish my blog's readers a 元宵节快乐!

Today is a Chinese Valentine's Day and to those who are in relationship, it's better to go out for dating before it's too late. Based on the culture, those who are single will be going to the river bank to throw oranges for women and bananas for men with the contact numbers, to find a new partner. Some even throw watermelon, papaya and even durian to lure people. Haha~ Actually, I haven't do this before and I'm not sure and I will do it or not. Should I do it tonight? Will my fate comes?

Recently, some of my friends asked about my future plan after my graduation. Actually, I haven't decide which path I should go and the readers will know it soon, after 5 months later. Don't worry.

Left or Right?

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First Week of Final Semester 2012~

I just started my final semester on last Monday with a high expectation. On the first day, I had a class in the morning at 9am. But after half an hour later, the lecturer didn't come to the class and we as the students declared the class is canceled. Woke early in the morning and prepared for the class. I felt disappointed because the lecturer didn't inform the students about the class cancellation and just apologized the students through a Facebook group. It is informal to inform the students through Facebook because not everyone has a Facebook account although I am an active user. In my opinion, they should inform the students about any information related to the subjects by sending the emails, not putting up a notice on Facebook. It is a professional way to send an email to the students because it shows that the information is proved as 'black and white'. Facebook is a social network and not a place to announce a really important notice. I urge the lecturers to come back to the original place where they used to be and send their notification through email. Back to my study life. I attended two elective classes before I finalize my choice. Most of my coursemates were complained about less elective subjects offered by the university and I agree with them. But we have no choice. Life still need to go on. For the last class of the week, I was quite nervous because the lecturer will assign the students in to few groups and not the students to decide for their own groups. Because due to add and drop session is not over yet, the lecturers cannot decide for the groups yet. I just hope that I can get a good group members so that our work of progress will be smooth in the future. There were not a lot of students in the campus on last few days ago. It was easy to find a place to park the car. Currently a lot of students are having holiday or industrial training this semester. So quiet in the campus~ When I went to laboratory, I saw a Master student was doing his testing. The way he used the equipment gave me a horror feeling. He is going to destroy the things! I need to finish my testing as soon as possible so that I can use the equipment well before it destroy by him. Four months left for me to study. Time flies fast~ I still planning on my future path and haven't decide it yet~

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Happy Chinese New Year 2012!

I would like to wish all of my readers here a Happy Lunar New Year!

May this Dragon year brings happiness and prosperous to you and your family.

Drive safely when you are going back to the city. Remember your beloved ones~

To those who are in relationship, take this opportunity to spread your wings! Don't miss the chance~

1 week left before the last semester of my degree course starts. I can't wait for it!

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Second Week of January 2012

After the final exam, most of the students will be going back to their hometown and prepare for the new year celebration. But some of my coursemates including myself need to stay back to do our group project and the final year project. For the group project, it was a last minute work to do. If the readers know my attitude based on the previous post, you will know how I felt. Luckily, we managed to finish it. As for my final year project, I faced a problem. I do not have the materials that I wanted and I need to wait for the new materials to come before I proceed my work. But I still pray that I can finish my project on time. I saw some of my coursemates just started their project in the laboratory, they looked frustrated and they reminds me when I started my project on last semester by myself. It is hard to handle a project alone, especially when handle the laboratory testing. Usually in the laboratory classes, we do it in a group and now, we do it by our own. Tough is tough but it is a good training, 1 person handles all the testing at one time. Last Tuesday, I managed to do 20 rounds with 600 tests for my project. It sounds 'Cool'~ But I still meed to continue. Due to insufficient of materials, I have to postponed my work and I need to discuss the matter with my supervisor. I hope I can resume back my work on next week. Meanwhile, my coursemates suggested to have a holiday in Malacca on next Monday to release stress due to last semester pressures but I declined to join them. I felt myself a little bit passive this time. Maybe I was too tired with the works and I would like to rest alone. Sometimes meet with old and best buddy is really good. At least you can share your excitements and problems with them and they will not betray you. And also, thanks for the movie Buddy! ;) Recently, I saw a lot of my friends started to get in to relationship or targeting for someone. Is it this year is a good year to start a new relationship? Should I follow the tune? I hope they can maintain their relationship, marry as soon as possible and get a dozen of children. Hahaha~ New Year is coming soon and I think I won't buy much of new cloths this year. Save money for a something?? About my future, I was still considering which field that I should go. Time is running out and I need to decide soon. Headache~

I would like to take this opportunity to wish Happy Ponggal to my blog readers who will be celebrating the festival tomorrow. Have a pleasant weekend~

Gorgeous performance from Adele!

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Semester 2 2011/2012 Final Exam Post Mortem

I just finished my final exam on the last two days ago. I had 4 papers for this time. Each papers got their own difficulties and I saw everyone were under pressure and stress. Same goes to me. I felt headache for few times. I was not well prepared for this exam. It was not like last time, when I answered the questions with confidence. I do not have the confidence. I was trying to hide my nervousness in front of my coursemates and I managed to make it. This time, I followed my coursemates and study together in a group. It was helpful when we can discussed the questions. But I felt uncomfortable to study when we studied at a public area such as cafes. I still prefer to study in a bright & silent area such as library, without any distraction from people. Unfortunately, my university's library doesn't looks like a library at all. Some of the students are uncivilized. They like to create a 'Zoo Environment' in the library and I was wondering why the librarians didn't take any actions on them? If back to those time in my secondary school when I was a librarian, I will kick those who likes to interrupt the peace out of the library without any mercy. My first paper was about the role of engineers in a society. It was more like a moral studies but more towards to the ethics. Some of the questions are easy but some were not. It took me 4 days to memorized all of the theories which were basically on laws & codes. After next two days later was Highway & Transportation Engineering. It was a four credit hours subject and four questions need to be answered. I need to score on this subject and I was worrying about it. The next paper was a hardcore subject for me which is Foundation Engineering. A lot of my unimates thought I was taking a Foundation Students' subject but actually its not. Those who wants to specialize in Geotechnical Engineering, this is the subject that you need know well. the lecturer told as the the questions are easy. He is really smart when he creates the questions that I was so confused and couldn't answer it well. He really tests us on the basic and understanding of the subject and I really salute him. The last paper was Reinforced Concrete Design II. For the whole semester, I am not really sure what am I studying on this subject. I didn't know the course outline. I just followed what the lecturer taught. Even one of my coursemates joked: "Although we managed to get an 'A' for the last RCI but this time if we get C, what will the employee will think about it?" I think we done our best and just hope to get well on the exam. It was relieved moment after the final exam. I would like to thank to the lecturers who taught me well. Yesterday, I had a day tour in Golden Triangle KL. I managed to visit my former workplace back. I was shocked that the place has changed a lot and it was a good sign because it shows that the project is going to end soon. And now, my semester break begins but I need to go back to my university and continue with my project while the others are enjoying their holiday. What a life~ I have to plan my future already by searching companies to apply a job. I am still considering which field I should go. 5 months left before I end my degree studies. One of my ex-colleague told me that the best time to enjoy is during the study time. Time flies fast~

Although I couldn't watch the concert in KLCC on last night but still I managed to watch it at here~

New Year with a New Chapter~

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Happy New Year 2012~

Happy New Year!

New Resolution?

New Life?

1 week left for the final exam.

Stay tune~ ;)