13th Week of the Last Semester~

I am not going to write about what had I done on last week. Instead, I would like to write about what I felt. Last week, my temper is getting bad when I faced some of the challenges. Furthermore, I get a lot of pressures regarding on studies, projects and job applications/offers from my peers. Actually, I shouldn't treat these matters as my pressures because I am different from the others. But imagine when a whole group of people ask  the same questions to you that you don't like to answer it. Will you get frustrated? I am a person who does not like to tell too much about my things to other people including my best friend. Maybe the readers may think that I am a secretive person. Yes I am. I was betrayed by few friends that revealed my secrets to other people on last time. I do not trust people easily after that incident. From that moment, I seldom tell my real problems or share my secrets to my friends, including my best /good friends. Meanwhile, spreading rumour is not really good. Rumour is like a virus that may kill a person. I was being told by a friend that I got an offer for something. I felt weird about it and I asked him/her where he/she got the information. To my surprise, he/she told me that he/she know it from another friend where that friend know it from another friend who so called that will give me the offer. I didn't get any notice that I will get the offer and I categorized it as a rumour because there is no solid proof to shows that it is a true story. I agree with one of my lecturers who told me that as a future engineer, we need to analyze a problem with facts and figures and not with rumours. I think that is all I want to crap at here. 1 week left before the back to back final exam but I am still slacking. 

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few will be tried before you give them your confidence~

12th Week of the Last Semester

As usual, my pressure level is increasing when the due date for the project submission, test, presentation or final exam is coming soon. But most of my coursemates told me that I still look so calm and free from worries. Actually I do really worry about my projects, tests, exams and also my future path. Maybe it because I didn't show it too publicly and I keep it tightly, like I seal my secrets well. Last Monday, I was invited by a society to attend their last event of the year. When I compare their activities with my university, there are some difference and the main is formality. I think its due to the environment, my university is more keen to formality and protocol. Even one of the organizers told me that my university is too formal until need to stand when the national anthem and my university's song are played. I am not sure he/she is joking or insulting but I think when we are in an event, we need to be careful with the way we present ourselves. But I really thank to the organizers for inviting me and I think it will be the last student activity that I joined before I graduate. Meanwhile, my university's career unit organized a career fair for two days on last Tuesday. It was a smaller scale if compare to last year's career fair but some of the big companies come back again and support the fair. This time, I didn't join the fair as a volunteer because I am busy with my projects and I became a job-seeker instead. I saw a lot of students were applying oil and gas companies on that day. I think everyone is searching for a high pay salary job so that they can survive in an expensive society. As for now, I still haven't get any offer yet even though I applied some of the jobs since last month and I still continue to apply it. I am happy for my coursemates who secured their job but at the same time I start to worry about myself because I haven't get an  offer yet. Maybe the readers will think that it is too early for me to apply a job but I think it is not too early. Its really competitive nowadays, not easy to find a good job. I hope I can get it soon and I really dislike when my coursemates ask about my job application. Next week, I will be facing a test and a group project presentation and I am not ready yet. Next two weeks, I will be facing another group presentation and my final year project presentation. Next three weeks, I will be facing my final exam which will be held on the first and second day. Next four weeks, I have to submit my thesis and project reports. When the juniors asked me to describe about my final year, I told them that they will know it soon and asked them to enjoy while they can. I am not sure that my advice will frighten them or not but I think they will make it through.


The secret of success is learning how to use the pain & pleasure instead of having pain & pleasure use you. If you do that, you're in control of your life. If you don't, life controls you~

This song resembles my feeling now~

15th April 2012

How lucky I am just now. I was shocked when I heard a loud 'POP' sound in my room and suddenly there is no electricity. Initially I thought that no electricity for the whole building but I was wrong, my house is the only place does not have the electricity. It is not the first time for me to face this kind of situation in the hostel. I faced it before during my final exam time on last year. The room is so dark and I home alone I do not have a torchlight and I had to used my the light of my handphone to see the area and I still don't know how to use my it. When I wanted to go out to the office's notice board and get the technician's contact number, one of my housemates came back from his hometown. Luckily got a housemate to accompany with me for the dark time. Haha~ After half an hour later, the technician came and repaired the problem. He found out that my room's sockets got problem. Luckily I haven't take my bath and the weather is really hot although this evening the rain showered at my university. Today is the 100th Anniversary of the sinking of Titanic. A total of 1514 deaths and it still famous for it's sinking legacy. I would like to share a short clip on how the ship sank by James Cameron and his team rather than to share the famous song 'My Hearts Will Go On' to commemorate the anniversary, to let the readers understand how it sank.

New Computer-Generated Imaginary of how Titanic sank~

3 weeks left before the final exam starts. I only have 2 papers and I need to face it on the first and second day of the exam week. It is a 'Back to Back' exam~~

Need to plan the time well and

I believe that 'The Pain You Feel Today Will Be The Strength You Feel Tomorrow~'

Early April 2012

I would like to wish a Blessed Good Friday to my Christian friends and have a good Easter weekend!

Early this month, I was quite busy with my Integrated Design Project especially when I need to prepare and compile the materials for the client's meeting. It was quite last minute to received a notice for the meeting. But this is a real life. I need to be prepare what ever I face. About the meeting, the client was quite satisfied with my group works except a member. I tried my best to make sure that he do his works but sometimes he can gives me a pressure. I think the other group leaders will agree with my statement. I just hope that everything are in order. Recently, I have received a call from a company and the executive asked me whether I am interested to work with their company or not. Without hesitation, I agreed and sent my application letter & resume to her. And now, I hope they will ask me for an interview. But its still early, I still need to apply other companies so that I have a few choices to choose for my future. Nowadays, I am getting lazier despite busy with my projects. I didn't do my revision for the subjects that I taken. I just started to revise the notes 3 days before the mid term test. My mood of study is gone now. Maybe it is due to I am going to graduate soon. I am not the only person who feel that, some of my classmates feel that way too. I need to find my study mood back before the final exam. Yesterday, I took a test in the afternoon. I realized that my handwriting is getting worst like 'Chicken's Claw' (direct translation from Malay Language: Cakar Ayam). I hope that my lecturer will not deduct my marks due to my handwriting. During the test, I saw one of my classmates was cheating by copying the answer from her notes. She hided her notes under her answer booklet so that the lecturer couldn't notice it. I was wondering how she can get a high courage to copy. During evening time, I went to a hotel with my classmates for the last dinner before we graduate. It was a last minute planning and it is not easy to plan since everyone is busy with  their project. But in the end, it ended well. I saw them were enjoying. Gossiping here and there. No stress. After the dinner, we had our group photo session on a staircase. There was a tourist, who was walking down on the staircase. So sudden, she stopped and stand on a level of the staircase, called her friend to come down. My classmate asked her politely to excuse herself for us to take our group photo but she didn't leave and she  remains standing at there, interrupt our group photo taking. When her friend came down, she showed a 'Tiny Eyes' or 'Mata Sepet' look to us before she leave. All of us felt like: WHAT THE HELL??? Can she respect us? Even when we visit other countries, we still respect their people, cultures and rules. But they didn't. They came here to visit or study but didn't respect us. I think they should go back to their own motherland if they feel that here is not suitable for them to visit or study and the country will be more peaceful without their presence.  Please respect people so that they will respect you back. 6 weeks left and it will be the crucial weeks for me. I need to stay focus and keep a good health so that I can finish these 6 weeks well. 

A song that boost my spirit~ Don't give up~