Back to Singapore in 2019. I was unhappy in the company and changed in to another department. I learned new elements, especially in communication and coordination skills. I had to handle 3 projects at the same time. It was messy but I managed to make it through.
2020 is an annus horribilis. I was lucky enough, went back to hometown for a CNY visit before the whole world lock down due to the virus. The first three months during the lock down was tough. I stayed in my own room everyday. I felt lonely. Luckily I am still sane now.
I thought 2021 will be better. But, I may be wrong. I have changed a new job after 6 years of blind loyalty to the company. Business is business. There is no mercy when it comes to business. I strongly agree that I have to take care of myself first before I care about others.
I think I will stay longer in Red Dot for a while, cannot travel abroad at the moment. I just really hope that all will go back to normal soon.
Recently, few people asked me some of the questions below:
Who is your BFF?
Am I your BFF?
Honestly, I do not know how to answer it. There is no BFF in my dictionary. In our busy life, friendship is always put to the test. What I can say is, everyone got their own agenda. I will never get the full support from anyone that I know. I understand that I am on my own now. This is why I try to be independent. I will do my best to fill myself, with my own achievements. Nobody will help me, except myself.
Turning thirty is a confusing juncture of life. It can be dreadful enough to make people feel that they are finally not young any more. At the same time, it can motivate people to start living their lives to the fullest. I would like to take this opportunity to thank those who wished me on last week. Although I received 17 wishes only but I feel very blessed and cannot ask anymore. Thankful and grateful for the people who have come in to my life and shared with me this life in a way or another.
I acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which I worked and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. I pay respect to Elder past, present and emerging.
I was lucky to be here for my company's international assignment, which I will work until early next year. When I arrived here, I was surprised with the high security checking in the airport. If compare to Sydney or Melbourne, here is stricter and I think it is good. There was an officer stopped me and asked me for my declaration custom card. Then the officer asked did I bring any 'bakwa'. I was like.... Haha! Currently I am staying in CBD area, which is less than 2km to the office. I can walk to the office and back easily, except for now because it is the winter time. The temperature can reach to the lowest point, which is 6-7 degree Celcius. The office environment is different if compare to the Red Dot. The working desk is bigger, the walking space is bigger, the pantry is bigger, there is a mini fridge which stores the beers. Oh my... There is a monthly event, the 'Friday Forum' where everyone can drink as much they can for 2 hours. I do not think this will happen in the Red Dot office. How fortunate the OZ colleagues here. The workload is not that much, I was lucky to off work on time. I can treat this year as a gap year. To rest well, enjoy the environment alone. Sometimes it is not easy to stay alone, but time flies fast. I will make it through. I cannot wait to explore more here.
I wanna take you somewhere so you know I care But it's so cold and I don't know where I brought you daffodils in a pretty string But they won't flower like they did last spring
And I wanna kiss you, make you feel alright I'm just so tired to share my nights I wanna cry and I wanna love But all my tears have been used up
On another love, another love All my tears have been used up On another love, another love All my tears have been used up On another love, another love All my tears have been used up
Oh oh And if somebody hurts you, I wanna fight But my hands been broken, one too many times So I'll use my voice, I'll be so fucking rude Words they always win, but I know I'll lose
And I'd sing a song, that'd be just ours But I sang 'em all to another heart And I wanna cry I wanna learn to love But all my tears have been used up
On another love, another love All my tears have been used up On another love, another love All my tears have been used up On another love, another love All my tears have been used up
Oh oh Oh, need a love, now, my heart is thinking of I wanna sing a song, that'd be just ours But I sang 'em all to another heart And I wanna cry, I wanna fall in love But all my tears have been used up
On another love, another love All my tears have been used up On another love, another love All my tears have been used up On another love, another loveAll my tears have been used up oh oh
It is not easy to work with a superior who is good in acting. In front of you, he/she treats you well. Behind of you, he/she gives you a stab. Every morning I will face the same questions: 'What are you doing now? What is the status for this? For that? Why like this? Can you chase this and that?' Honestly, I fed up. I keep thinking of my home country. I miss the time that I spent in my home country. I will be leaving Red Dot for a year once my visa is approved. It will be another challenging year for me.
Last few weeks ago, I received my first birthday gift of the year. They accepted me to stay in Red Dot for another 5 years! It was hassle to complete the formalities. But, I do not need to be worry so much if I get retrench. Nowadays, it is not easy to survive in a big multinational company. Work hard is not the best way to survive. We have to be smart and react well in all situations. From my previous posts, it is advisable not to trust a person easily. Readers may think that I become more 'kiasi' but this is what I am facing now. Too many liars out there. Yesterday, I received my second birthday gift. I feel that I was lucky to get the opportunity although I screwed up the video and talked a lot of craps in front of five panelists during the interview. Now, I have to wait for them to finalise the location soon because there will be a lot of preparations need to be done. There is no wish list for this year. I just hope all well ends well.
Nowadays, most of the people that I known like to say that I am rich due to I am working in Red Dot and they think that I got a lot of money to buy everything and should treat them a meal. Frankly speaking, I dislike the way they think about this.
